Reality, you suck.

A: I recently discovered I don't like NOT working. I've only worked at my new job for two days, and yes.. it is tiring and yes, my feet did kill after the day. But, I'm going crazy NOT working. And I don't know what I'm going to do after Sunday because that's the last day for my hostess job, so maybe I'll just call in tomorrow morning and see if there is anything for me to do in between this job and my next job that I have lined up. B: I want a car of my own so badly, that when I think of it I want to cry because it seems so far away. But, I figure that if I keep up on this, work as much and as often that I can. Then I'll be able to afford to put a down payment on if not pay for it completely, my dream car. Let's get a visual shall we?
Nice huh? Well, I can't wait for the day that I can have my own car. Exciting. But, I feel a bit melancholy now. I seem to have some odd dreams when I listen to a few specific songs at night. For instance, when I listen to Epiphany by Staind.. as I did last night, I have terrible nightmares about my twin dying in a car crash and then I go absolutely nuts, and I wake up with tears streaming down my face. I dont have a twin!! And that's only one song too, there are others that do it as well. Wonder what that's all about? I dont think I want to go to school this year either. I'm not sure what I want to do. I think that maybe since I have so many conflicts going on inside my head, that maybe it's why I feel like crap. Like, I dont know what to do, I feel happy about one thing but then I think about another thing like school and work and then it just brings me down. Not too bad but ya know, it's not fun. *sigh* I need a cookie. A big fat one. BTW, that cookie recipe you gave me is really good. I made some tonight, and it tastes really good.